Insane is Repeating

by Smashy Claw

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From the intense gypsy-rock opener "White Coats" to the sprawling 8-minute circus nightmare "Primeval in Cm", Smashy Claw's psychedelic sophomore effort is an eclectic adventure through every genre imaginable.

"I love this stuff. Your music totally speaks my language."
- Mark Kramer

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released November 18, 2016

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Track Name: White Coats
Jesus Christ, the guy inside that painting just moved
I’m serious here. But you scoff at me in my rubber room
Acting sly you sadly try to craftily pry into my shatterproof mind
The unseen strings, I see their seams
So you basely deem me a crazy freak. What good are secrets that leak?

White coats in the room
Say I’m insane, but they’ve got no proof
You think I’ll take this abuse?
Then it’s you who this jacket should be strapped to

No offense, but tell the feds to get a new shrink
Delirious fear keeps me up cause they attack when you blink
Pathetically, you desperately, try to get me to see that there’s no conspiracy
But I won’t buy that clever lie
Hey, surveillance spies and psychic satellites: free me or meet your demise
Track Name: Amygdala
An old Polaroid with a person removed
There’s a me-shaped hole in all your family albums
A severed cerebrum sheds in strips to the floor
The chill of you’s triggered through my hypothalamus
Each time’s the same, but this reckless brain’s holding on

Why did you vivisect me?
Never knew you had surgical skills
Cause you took out the beaty thing that was in my chest
Why did you vivisect me?
Amygdala, you make me so mad

Back and forth and back again like a tumor returned
Now my hippocampus is a huge load-bearing wall
You infected me and my Wernicke died
Their warning words were getting slurred in my broken skull
Like magnets attract my lobotomy’s coming back till you’re gone

Why did you vivisect me? (Meningitophobia)
Never knew you had surgical skills
Cause you took out the beaty thing that was in my chest
Why did you vivisect me? (Meningitophobia)
Amygdala, you make me so mad

Like a storm that won’t quit, reason won’t deter these crazy kids
Insane is repeating what didn’t work
My brain’s getting in the way
Serious mental injury is bound to happen to those who are not careful
Why did you vivisect me?
Track Name: Déjà Vu (Déjà Vu)
Have you ever burst through the door of a room, then forget why you went in?
Have you ever had a stranger call your name, but it’s their stupid kid?
The nagging sense that everything you’ve done has been done before
The odd familiarity that none of us can ignore

Déjà vu, déjà vu
Am I doomed to repeat all I do?
The reruns run and it syndicates you
A vague persistence that the thing’s not new

Do you ever walk to the beat of a song when you’re listening to it?
Have you ever thought about Madame Tussaud dumpster diving for q-tips?
Is a lazy animator copy/pasting the frames?
Is the glitchy Matrix making it so that it won’t change?

Déjà vu, déjà vu
Am I doomed to repeat all I do?
I swear I’ve heard this chorus before too
The reruns run and it syndicates you
A vague persistence that the thing’s not new
Track Name: The Spy Inside
Try to act natural
You know the consequence if the secret slips: they’ll see your shame
A spy should be casual
But in your daunting dreams you see a haunting scene of witches at the stake

Mission’s clear: hide from the enemy
Maintain cover, never let it show
They’d point and scream and say you’re not like them
If the spy inside is exposed

The truth is a black hole
Those words you’d dare to speak, make sure they’re buried deep beneath your skin
Give the real you a capsule
Believe in your own lie, turn into the disguise to kill the freak within

Disappear, conceal identity
Undercover as another clone
They light the torches when you’re not like them
The spy can ruin lives if exposed

Take your fear, make it an entity
Use as cover, never let it go
They contradict themselves but still condemn
When spies that they despise are exposed
Voices sear: “reveal, you’re dead to me”
It’s all over if they ever know
Until they see you through a broader lens
The spy inside can hide with the clothes
Track Name: My Ancient Head
Picture, me: an anxious teen
You, the very same
Secretly underneath, our eyes reveal our age

There we were by the creek
Contamination in the drink

Never scar, never bleed
A prize that’s paid in youth
Reluctantly, still a team
Cause we’re the only two

Tell me, do you think it’s fair that as they die we don’t?
Immortal me wakes from his sleep, dreaming of the day he won’t

Is it wrong to want to see a cease to this seeming eternity?
Hoping that we still blend in, fearing lab examination
I’d rather lay my eyes on a reaper’s scythe than you again

Another year, another day, synonyms to us
Take a blade, invade a vein
But your god ignores the touch

The cars were ants from so far below
We grazed the sky with nothing to show
Defective, deceptive skin, the bars that keep us caged
Like I said, my ancient head can’t think of something new to say

Is it wrong to want to see a cease to this seeming eternity?
Hoping that we still blend in, fearing lab examination
I’d rather lay my eyes on a reaper’s scythe than you again
Track Name: Regarding Your Demise
Hey little man, scooch on over, make room for big ol’ dad
Hmm, what was that? No I’m not drunk, shut up, don’t be a brat
I know that it’s late; I just wanted to say a few things, father to son
As you grow up, you’ll want to quit when it’s tough
And maybe you should, cause life sure sucks

Living’s a gateway drug that gets you hooked on breathe
You’ll build up a steady dependence and a deficit ends in death
God is your dealer, and with age he’ll jack the price
So intentions are hopeless, whatever your dope is
You’re just a corpse waiting to die, okay now sleep tight

Everyone’s got a nightmare regarding their demise
Sleep well my little angel
Someday you’ll be dust, and they’ll hardly mind

I know you’re young, and mom was saying I shouldn’t be so blunt
But in my gut, I know you’ll be better off knowing this stuff
The world’s made of tools that are molded by rules, many of which are built on lies
The optimist is the kind who is willingly blind
He’ll get stabbed twice and still ask why

Fear is the worry for bad outcomes you might face
Sad is acceptance when those outcomes have taken place
Life doles out annoying guests, that’ll break down the cosmic door
And son to be honest, I downed a few vodkas
I don’t know what I’m saying anymore, I’ll be on the floor

Even I’ve got a nightmare regarding my demise
Sleep well my little cherub
Someday I’ll be dust, and you’ll hardly mind

I won’t always be here, son, so heed these words I spout
Life is a scary thing, and you’ll spend it doused in doubt
A dad’s job is to prevent his kid from repeating mistakes he’s honed
But no matter how hard I try, you’ll only make your own, you’ll go it alone

My neverending nightmare’s regarding your demise
Sleep well my little darling
Someday you’ll be dust, someday I’ll be dust
Someday we’ll be dust, but we’ll hardly mind
Track Name: Subordinate
I swear this tie is tightening, like I’m dangling from some gallows
The secretary’s crying, takes all I’ve got to keep my mouth closed
Crossed the line so much, I’d kill him if he weren’t my boss
With rage is what I’m filled. Christ, now what does he want?

You’re kind of addicted to being flawless
You’re going to help out, cause you’re so kind
You know you’re an asset to the whole office
No really, you succeed in all you try

The coffee’s pretty bitter, as are all of his wrecked subjects
Spend the day on Twitter, hoping he’ll say “clean out your desk”
Quit the bigoted drivel; he says that god hates gays
Demeans and belittles people when he won’t get his way

You’re kind of addicted to being flawless
You’re going to help out, cause you’re so kind
You know you’re an asset to the whole office
No really, you succeed in all you try

I’ve found myself day-dreaming the same thing for nearly two years
Walk up to his door and when it opens slit his throat to both ears
Still, I’m stuck in this tower, as spineless as I am
“Subordinate coward”, will surely read my epitaph

(You’re kind of addicted)
You’re kind of addicted to being flawless
(We’re grateful they found someone so profound, you’re going to help out)
You’re going to help out, cause you’re so kind
(The staff’s all in debt cause you’re heaven-sent; you know you’re an asset)
You know you’re an asset to the whole office
(At no point in time do we wish you’d die; you really succeed in all you try)
No really, you succeed in all you try
Track Name: I Am a Head (Inside a Head [Inside a Head {Inside a Head}])
Cut my head open
You’ll find another one
Cause I am

A head inside a head
A head inside a head
A head inside a head
Plagiarizing then disguising

This song’s a rip-off
Of one you’ve heard before
And that song ripped-off something else
History’s for shameless thieves

A head inside a head
A head inside a head
A head inside a head
Plagiarizing

All thoughts have been thought before
(What a rip-off)
Nothing original’s left
(What a rip-off)
Even the thought that all thoughts have been thought
Has been thought before

A head inside a head
A head inside a head
A head inside a head
Plagiarizing
Track Name: Da Capo
My aching legs await the words that pour from pens
The kind he sings in rhyme define my every step
It ends and briefly then the puppet strings go limp
But when it starts again, so does its Sisyphus
Cause all I know is this: the song that never quits

In the earworm from hell
There’s a cell behind the bars and lines
Don’t believe in the lie
When the pie says music died

Beneath your mp3 a scene repeats all day
It’s me who plays the lead but dreams of an escape
As if a broken disc could skip an endless jam
My arms are slaves to art, I march to bard’s command
On charts Descartes is crammed, he sings therefore I am

In the earworm from hell
There’s a cell behind the bars and lines
Don’t believe in the lie
When the pie says music

Diatonic decay
Da capo decapitates
Do re mi fa so la ti do
Oh slay me god or let me go
Track Name: Claustrophobia
When I was a kid, my parents told me about a man
Who’d slip through the chimney and slink in as sugar plumbs danced
Rumor is he leaves presents, but does that justify a B&E
I’m guarding my organs, cause I’ve been staying up scared to death of this freak

It seems like they wouldn’t care
If they woke up to find a fat man’s vacant stare
He’s fooled the world, but I’m not convinced
I tremble at the thought of what he does to those put on the naughty list

In the arctic snowy frost
Where no man can survive for long
Dwells a beast with fur and claws
Am I the only one with claustrophobia?

Eight bloodthirsty reindeer (that could kill you with one kick) fly just above
How has no one deciphered what Clement Moore was trying to warn us of
He’s coming for you this Xmas, executing the masses in the chill of night
This monster needs subjects for a ritualistic winter solstice sacrifice

His shop makes weapons for the government
That indentured dwarves build under threat of death
He sees you sleep, he seemingly can’t die
And just what kind of godless witchcraft gets him down a chimney at that size

In the arctic snowy frost
Where you or I wouldn't survive for long
Dwells a beast with fur and claws
Am I the only one with claustrophobia?

It can’t be only me who’s frightened by this freak
Put the ‘n’ at the end and you’ll see what I mean
Blood in snow is awfully close to looking like the clothes he wears
So, late at nights I’ve been devising secret schemes
In the hopes that this December when he comes for me
A plate of poison cookies puts an end to this white-haired nightmare
Track Name: A Matter of Good and Evil
Love and hatred, they make a pair
One breaks his bones to make a wage to take home, the other one’s an heir
There’s some scribbled scrawling in a sacred scroll concerning prophecy
The pictograms depict a man who dimly stands triumphant but unseen
Inching close those foes will go to war

Never seen a brawl like this, the opposites attract
One towers over with its hulking size, the other is no match
Place your bets on who might win this
I think we all know who the obvious pick is
When a matter of good and evil comes to blows, it's a grim tableau

Living and dying, they make a pair
One prowls at nights in cowls and tights picking fights; the other’s got green hair
All who breathe so hollowly look over their shoulder, a bit ashamed that they peeked
His clientele, the lifeless shells know well that he’s out there. He’s the face of defeat.
When you're young, he knocks, for us, he roars

Never seen a brawl like this, the opposites attract
One towers over with its hulking size, the other is no match
Place your bets on who might win this
I think we all know who the obvious pick is
When a matter of good and evil comes to blows, noble neck’s wear ropes
Track Name: Evil Will Prevail
Henchman sweep the foggy street
The president’s in jail
If I’ve learned one thing on earth, its evil will prevail

Abandoned shops are boarded up
Upon the door they nailed
A bloody board that tries to warn that evil will prevail

In the mud, a sluggish schlub
Is crawling like a snail
Did his dad not tell him that evil will prevail?

Covert ops and crooked cops
Have heads they must impale
It’s okay they’ll all get paid when evil prevails

Neon lights that shine so bright
Obscure a darker veil
One by one the heroes run cause evil has prevailed

Tumbleweeds roll down the street
As dogs eat their own tails
Misery’s like air you breathe when evil has prevailed

A picket fence with stains and dents
A mailbox stuffed with mail
Envelopes envelop ghosts when evil did prevail

Rain so thick it falls in bricks
To crack the cars with hale
Falling down to slowly drown where evil had prevailed

A storm that swirls and eats the world
Will soon be setting sail
What a time to be alive, evil will prevail
Track Name: Old, Fat & Despised
I’m not expecting your sympathy
Gloating may be more appropriate, I hate irony
I stole your spotlight, now they stole it from me
If you rise, sooner or later you’ll fall
I fell so hard and you loved it
Looking at the situation, neither of us won overall

I erased your dreams, now the same’s done to me
Cause love is never something that lasts
They shower with fame, then they bury the name
Of old fads

Maybe once I’d have looked down my nose
And asked you how it felt to fade to nothing like a discarded ghost
But attention’s an adrenalin dose
The more you get the more that you crave
We reminisce and play checkers
But deep inside we both resent the other person’s dumb, stupid face

I erased his dreams, just like you did to me
And then they feared the shadow I cast
They worship your steps, then they quickly forget

The old, fat, and despised have the past in their eyes
Celebrity’s like an assembly line
Knocked to the side by the hot, younger guy
Erased, debased, defaced, replaced
Until we don’t leave a trace

Now that our fifteen have ended
We watch as our replacements are replaced and take the bench by our side

I erased your dreams, now the cycle repeats
I’m smirking as your merch fills the trash
They hand you a sign that says ‘relic of time’
AKA old fad
Track Name: Fire in the Sky
Bike tires screech on the side of a road
The wheels fought the frost. With my hands on the bars, I walk home
Each selfish breath hangs like smoke that could burn down the sun
Both hands man my lips, just let me forget
Sealing shut. Eyelids up.

I’d try to sleep now, but the back of my eyes show her picture
My mind's going blind from the fire in the sky that didn’t miss her

Car tires shriek in my temporal lobe
The lights they ignored made a nightmare take form
As it snowed, let it go

I’d try to sleep now, but the back of my eyes show her picture
My mind's going blind from the fire in the sky that didn’t miss her
I dream that someday these dreams will forget her
Track Name: Vicious Circle
There’s this ever-present itching addiction in me
The only thing that stops the twitching is sickening to see
Watch the fleeting life flooding from their eyes
I am horrified by my crimes
This brain’s as brilliant as it is deranged
If it can’t be tamed, there’s one other way

I’ll build a machine to save the masses from me
It travels in time to wash away my sin
I built a machine to save ‘em from me
I’ll travel in time to find the tortured kid who grew into my skin
Ending it before it can begin

Stepping through the smoking time pod, oh my god, I’m here
Haven’t seen the place in so long, it’s been gone for years
Staring breathless, stunned, and amazed
Stands the innocent me of eight

I’m clutching the knife, I think we’re ready to die
Then suddenly dad stumbles in on us
I’m clutching the knife, I’m ready to die
Then suddenly dad runs in with a gun, shoots to save his son
Traumatized, the kid starts to go numb

There’s this ever-present itching addiction in me
Track Name: Parasite
All we want’s a decent place to hide
You’re twice the man you thought you were
It multiplies the more you look inside
Living off the life that let us in
The parasite came here to fight
A billion dangling right beneath your skin

We are the people who thrive
Beneath the peephole of your eye
Our bind is lethal, what once was you will soon be the new us
Cause in this sequel heroes die

Creepy crawly critters burrow deep like a sliver
We configure long before you see we play for keeps
Our fondness for this body’s growing fierce
We slip in slow to seize control
So though you host, your lonely ghost adheres

We are the people who thrive
Beneath the peephole of your eye
Our bind is lethal, what once was you will soon be the new us
Cause in this sequel heroes die
Track Name: Monster
I made a monster, but I didn’t know
The lightning it struck him and he stood up slow
He tried hard to hide it, but these things get out
I tried to fight it, forget what I found
I never wanted this for you

The gavel strikes sharply, the jurors agree
I hate you so badly, you took you from me
So what little’s left now of that kid I raised
Will never be seen without bars cross his face
I never wanted this for you
Track Name: Primeval in Cm
On the night that it appeared
Stars burned out to hide themselves in fear
It’s here
Once upon a time, the night
Brightly shined, then darkness drowned the light
In spite

Long before gods chiseled rock to forge universe
Something was patiently waiting to rise
As was foretold, a great old evil has returned
Woken to blacken the skies
Grim grinning ghosts socialize

The bridges burst and bend
Shapeless forms with Rorschach heads
Mud’s creeping up the walls
Men walking on their eyes
Floods of endless raining slime
A wind that screams in squall

Cars careening from the clouds
Water from the faucet comes out brown and drips to the ground
Then crawls around
Midnight monster movie scene
Things are creeping through the TV screen
A fog thick and green seeps through the floorboards that creek

Now it looks down on the town as it burns and breaks
One battle waged in a new shiny war
Slithering on with the dawn to another place
Soon it’ll show up in yours
Listen for its distant roar